A Misguided Journey

When I first decided to wear my hair natural, I thought "I'm tired of wearing weave, let me try something new." It was strictly about my hair.....so I thought. I realized that some folks in my own family had never seen my natural hair, shoot I wasn't even sure if I truely knew what my natural hair looked like despite the fact that I had been doing my own weaves for about 10 years or so. I never really appreciated my hair, I didn't necessarily like my hair. I thought it was difficult, damaged, and most of all unacceptable for me to be seen in public in such a way. So I wore weaves...long weaves, short weaves, curly weaves, colored weaves (1B/360), synthetic weaves, full caps, pony tails... Holla at ur girl! lol It didn't really matter as long as it wasnt MY hair.
I kept seeing women with beautiful natural hair but convinced myself that I just wasn't "an all natural kinda girl". I thought they all were trying to make some robust statement or all fighting a cause because they wore their hair and not someone elses!
I was very misguided!
wonder if anyone else had the same thoughts?? Now I know that it can be just a hair change for some and for others its so much more. For me, it is more about appreciating who I am completely...from my kinky roots to my flat feet. When I look in the mirror I want to see me, not some creation that took hours of manipulation to achieve.
I still love all my weave wearin sistahs, if it makes you happy and whole, then do u! People are so much more than they what we see, natural or not! :-)